That's excessive.

i don't know what to do with all this hatred
all these things i feel
everytime one of you vanishes
not giving any sign
or just giving the wrong signs
filled up with lies
it's sad to think of what all you men do
and how you never think about anyone 
but yourselves
and start saying all those crap
and being all gentle and caring
and i, like i fool, fall for this
for the fifth time in a row
how can you be that jerk and not care at all?
i've been used and played with
in so many different levels
and i still trust all these bullshit
that every new one keeps on telling me
naive as a little child
stupid and careless
but i'm done with this
i just can't stand it anymore
but i don't know what i could do
to forget and don't crave for anything like that right now
still don't know what to do with myself 
and my desires.